I’m in one of those moods where I want to tear myself down and rebuild from scratch.
I want to procrastinate all my responsibilities and sink into oblivion… or a bubble bath at least.
I want to drink tea with a friend and discover hidden truths about life and each other.
I want to get up and start doing all the things I want to do, but I’m afraid it will hurt.
I want enough energy to run for an hour straight.
I want nobody to depend on me for a good month or so.
I want to put a little salt on my life. I want to fucking taste it.
I want to hibernate starting now and come to in late March. I feel unresponsible for any actions that may happen in my waking time between these months during my non-humanlike state.
I need encouragement to keep the blood pumping into my brain half the year. If I’m lucky, this year I will do it and maybe I will actually feel alive!